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Backing into the present

Enlightenment - just another woo woo item on the spiritual consumer’s shopping list. I don’t have time for that shit - and why would I want any more awareness of my world than I’ve already got?

Kinda counterintuitive for me. I thought that the point of becoming adult was to manage the input rather than be aware and present for it. I needed filters - not the stripping away of them.

And all this talk about seeking enlightenment - fuck, give it a break - or keep your mental masturbation to yourself, please.

The low-impact cults like buddhism, christianity, and new-age philosophy put a lot of stock in seeking enlightenment, which was almost good enough to convince me it was a massive waste of time.

One problem - I wanted to kill myself, so maybe my arch cynicism and fatalistic outlook on life wasn’t really serving me all that well after all.

When I hit the wall and crashed hard, it gave me a willingness to open my mind and consider some alternatives to viewing life that I hadn’t before. Shit like:

The Realm of the Spirit

And other crap like that.

Turns out that it wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be - and that my contempt prior to investigation really did keep me ignorant and miserable.

I undertook the journey towards enlightenment of necessity, and now I am on it because the quest is more fulfilling than I could have imagined. 

But I’ve met a lot of poseurs, quacks, hacks and assholes along the path. They’ve been my signposts in what to avoid. Or recognize after I’ve gone down that wrong path.